I'm so upset that I never come here and write anything lately. I thought I would make a fresh start on my birthday since it was a big one this year, but that celebration, as low-key as it was, went on for a week before and weeks after, just picking up more and more things to do. It's the season when things are happening too, things we enjoy, and it gets harder and harder to open up this blog and type NEW POST.
I can't think how I'll ever catch up with the things I wanted to remember and the thoughts I was having. I can look at pictures and read texts and look at my calendar, but that's such a job, and I don't want another hard job.
Right now, this week, my mind is just swirling with things I'm doing and planning, and I just tend to get overwhelmed.
I've mourned, in a way, the passing of my babies into young ladies and pulling away from me slightly, but I'm trying to enjoy this phase of life, and all of a sudden, Kate and I have become closer since Gray has been so involved in sports and school work and friends. It's lovely, and I can't believe my luck, but I wish I could steal a little of her energy.
Just taking one afternoon out of all this -- I might not even have any pictures, but she has become the photographer and I'll help myself to some of hers later.
I'm doing better with sleeping with fewer naps during the day and longer stretches of sleep at night. Unfortunately, when I do get up, I don't want to start my day for so long that I all of a sudden am in a panic that the morning is already gone.
My morning: Opened the blinds and saw that it was not raining but a little gray and closed them again for a while! I made a scrambled egg and a piece of toast with peanut butter - just because - with a cup of coffee. Lately, I'm taking the time to grind my beans and just cook it on the stovetop. It takes longer than popping a pod into the Keurig, but it is really good. I'm not even sure what brand I bought this last time, probably some Starbucks on sale at Safeway. I've found that just a spash or two of Coffee Mate No Sugar Vanilla is what it needs to made it perfect.
I have so much that I want to know about, so many things I want to read that I could probably just while away an hour or so on the computer. And sometimes I do.
I texted with Noreen about our morning plans and talked about getting together for a walk that afternoon. We had the best long walk a few days ago - one of those spontaneous things that turned into perfection. I could have used a little more energy, but I'm used to that. We walked our usual route toward town, trying to catch the sunnier sidewalks. We were surprised to find another friend out on her way to pickle ball, so we walked several blocks with her and caught up. That was nice. N and I continued on down past the Y, and I got worried the return trip might be more than I needed, so we turned right and found a street where I could look forward to a little park and a bench to rest on if I needed. I did, and it was sunny and just the perfect spot to catch my breath. Then it was back through town, still finding the sunny sidewalks, and being glad that we had made the effort. Unfortunately, I didn't walk yesterday because of feeling light-headed and nauseous when I stood up more than 5 minutes. I hate that, but no one seems to know what brings it on, so I just live with it.
I knew one or both girls would be here after school, so I got Kate's quilt project a little organized for her to do a block.
First, though, she came in bubbling with excitement about a thing they have in their math class where they take "something" on Friday that others might be interested in and trade them off for the tickets that they've gotten during the week for good grades and good behavior. Kate lives for the butterscotch candies that the teacher hands out sometimes! The day before, I had guided her through making just a simple - VERY simple - bag to practice using the sewing machine. She was so excited about it that she took it home to her mom with a picture she had sketched.












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